apologies in advance, but this isn't going to be a craft or cooking related blog...nope, this is going to be my little venting session to avoid going completely insane, well, that's my hope anyway.
we (mainly i) have been looking for a house to buy for the last couple months, well truthfully i"ve been looking since feb. when i was given the information that we were indeed going to buy a house this year. quick back story: we've been in our rental home for nearly 4 years and i've been going stir crazy in it about the last 2! needless to say, i was overly excited about the prospect of finally buying a house that would have more room! and that may be part of my problem since i tend to get overly attached to ideas, places, or things...not a good trait at all. i realize that as a severe character flaw and would like to change, but sadly know that i'm probably not going to.
so, here i sit tonight, on my third glass of wine, fighting the urge to completely breakdown since i just received the news that the house we had finally set our sites on (and truthfully, my heart) went under contract this past weekend. i'm crushed. it would be fine if that was the first house that got away, but no, it's one of many that i have found to be perfect that have gotten away from us for one reason or another.
and i know all the things that everyone will say to make me feel better, and much as i appreciate them, they don't really make me feel any better...they just, kinda make it hurt a little bit more. so i'm giving up, utterly and completely. we have until august on our current lease here so i'll either be giving up for a few weeks and start looking again in june, or i'll bite the bullet and stay here one more year in the hopes that next year we'll really find the place that we're meant to be in...biting the bullet does not tempt me in even the slightest, little bit.
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