too many thoughts...

i have far too many thoughts floating around in my head at any given time on any given day. and that can be completely frustrating! today is one of those days...too many thoughts mixing with too many memories...driving me close to the edge of insanity. i'm a horrible, hormonal mess who could cry at the drop of a hat and actually has already broken down into several small crying fits already today. yippee for my family and to a lesser extent, for me.

it's hard to know why i'm really crying, all i know is that i can't seem to stop. so now i'm writing to try to make it all go away or at least lessen the tears...figuring that by getting things out of my head that will therefore stop the build up of tears. or it could cause a bigger downpour, but either way i'll feel somewhat clearer headed...if that's even what i could call it.

my deepest desire is to be a writer, but there are lots of writers out there...those published and those not and i know that my words are nothing special, at least not at the moment. but, i'm gonna try, yet another "hobby" to add to my long list, to be a writer even if it's only to purge the many thoughts that run through my head...it's something that i'm going to try. every writer has to start somewhere and my starting point is my blog. it may come to nothing, my words and writing style may become so mixed up that they only make sense to me & really i'm fine with that. but, i'm still going to try...that's all i can do. the hope is that i can at least empty out my brain each night before bed so that maybe i'll fall asleep faster & possibly put everything together in some coherent fashion.

so, here i go venturing down another path, because it goes along so well with all the other started but never finished ventures that i've tried in the past. i'm horribly good at starting new things...it's the finishing that seems to elude me so often.

what to say...what to say...

today was a somewhat lazy day for me...it's been raining all day and that just makes me very unmotivated to get anything done. i did, however, get the bathrooms and mirrors cleaned so i wasn't completely lazy after all.

i spent my non-cleaning time working on a couple more necklaces, both made using seed beads. i have now found the kind of beads that drive me near insanity when working with them...but i will continue to work with them since that's all a part of expanding my horizons! i have more things i want to make this weekend and hope to get all kinds of inspiration from the flowertown festival that runs through the weekend.

more sewing and bow making do need to be done, as well...i've got too much to do and not enough time to get to them...just like always! i only have myself to blame for that though and i'm very aware of that...it's all apart of my tendency to procrastinate with everything!

there's still more thoughts floating around in my head but i'm too tired of typing to get them out!